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Monday, January 19, 2009

"Cataract"

I’m in the middle of my exams and my mind is a bedlam but I’m determined to write today no matter what. I know by the end of this I’ll be screaming with self-condemnation and whatnots, but for now, let me be. This won’t be a long essay outlining some key guidelines to world peace, nor will it be an angsty commentary on why no football player is worth a hundred million pounds when people in Gaza are starving and that Kaka is hundred million times better off in Milan anyway (Giorgio Armani agrees with me too).

I just want to make a few statements to people who matter to me- specifically those whom I don’t contact often. OK, that would make ALL the people that matter. To my defence, firstly, my archaic hand phone has officially been retired.

The fall from grace was gradual- the screen initially went blank, though I could still receive calls and send messages (with a blank screen, mind. Kinda like a twisted version of Braille). The state then progressed to receiving calls but not hearing the caller’s voice when picked up (but he/she could still hear me). So the phone could still be useful if, say, hypothetically, I was kidnapped and managed to call my sister and informed her of the situation so that she could get help, but would be totally ineffective if the situation was reversed. By then, I already sensed the downhill direction of this device I bought a little over two years ago after ‘donating’ my previous faithful one to the hospital where I had my practical classes.

And as of today, I can’t even use it as an alarm anymore- gotta be content with that shrieking monotonous sound of my table clock. No more good music waking you up. But that’s the least of my concerns- bottom line is, I can’t contact any of you guys. For some of you who use the internet as much as I do, it’s not that big of a problem, but I know some of you who don’t.

To get to the point after that dismal, rather unnecessary ode to my hand phone, I miss a lot of people back home. Especially after talking to my parents the day before yesterday- I sorely miss home. I want to go home. And I’m not talking about the food one bit this time. Really.

Perhaps it’s part of the exam syndrome. Or the after-effect of “Hari bersama pejabat dekan”. Anyhow, I’m so not in the mood to study now (aah, finally I let that out loud and clear!). I think I’ll make myself a cup of tea.

ps: Great photos by my brother Muhammad taken during Palestine solidarity rallies in Cardiff and Bristol. Way to go, badut!


This pic was published in Reuters's site. (Hope you won't mind me putting it up here. My site carries more weight than theirs. Hahaha.) ;)

6 comments:

dith said...

Fi,

I know the reason why to all these emotional uproar. hehe

Sad ba ra!

Anonymous said...

haha. xkesah la wei. mmg tu tujuan gambar tu. kalau sesape lagi nak gambar ni btau la. but credit kat momad ye. momad xnk org curi gambar. ok. awk pon goodluck in exam.

Anonymous said...

as usual, no self taken pics. kesian, next time beli lah phone rm 200-300, more lasting.

as usual, nice to read ur essay. :)

to momad, very good composition, choice of lens and lens setting.
good luck, semoga beroleh rahmat.

Jamil said...

No worries. Nothing a cup of tea won't fix ;)

Sorry to hear about the death of your phone. But just like in the Harry Potter books, 'a phoenix shall rise from the ashes!' Make it an epic one today!

Anonymous said...

fi! no wonder laa sepanjang oz open tiada respon dr kamu! huhu. tiada kawan utk mengkritik. nway, my rafa had won his 1st oz title. n ur fedex cried like a baby. gud match tho. jgn kata tv russia x tayang gak! aku xleh bukak frenster kat um sbb telah disekat oleh admin. so im facebook-ing nw. ayuh!

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